No one warned me that parenthood would become a circus act...juggling responsibilities, demands, conflicts, housework, paperwork, and most importantly personalities. My biggest job is influencing the experiences and characters and habits of my children. Sounds easier than it is because all three are strong willed, independent, and outspoken children. To complicate matters my partner and husband is a Type A assertive personality too....so our household can be loud, volatile, and NOT easygoing. So I'm left trying to direct lots of chiefs and no indians....
I haven't found the right balance between personal chores and my work related duties. I keep trying to keep them apart, but after years of multi-tasking I find it difficult to stay focus and on task. I find myself interrupting my concentration by checking an email or fixing tea or running a load of laundry or calling my one of my sisters....I love it when I do become absorbed in my work which is usually when I'm writing a persuasive letter or note.
I've never enjoyed public speaking yet suddenly this year it has become something I do for my job as PR person for Reach Out and Read virginia and for JDRF. So tomorrow will be my biggest group so far, 80 librarians--people who will catch the grammatical errors and ums...oh well...I just have to remember to breathe and think of them as friends who want to hear about Reach Out and Read (which is a cool program to promote early childhood literacy...pediatricians talk to parents at well child visits and tell them the importance of reading aloud to their children, then the y give the kids a developmentally appropriate book to take home. By starting this book giving in infancy, the pediatrician and parent foster a love of books and reading in the children). The program works! It is cost effective and simple to administer.
I thought life was about following your passions, now I see I have to squeeze in my passions between responsibilities. I took a class today that talked about God and evil and free will. Had to clear cobwebs from my brain...but basically God gave us free will and thus we are responsible for the choices we make, and there are moral consequences for our behavior....this is what distinguishes us from the other creatures on earth.
Good night!